i know i heard her say she wanted to die with a bit of dignity. unsure of context, hairs stand up on my neck. the pandemic rages all around us. outside it is freezing, or so it looks from here, inside where it isn't quite warm enough. and here we are: january midwinter! a very old woman walking her dog, as i shovel my snow, she says she has had enough winter. how can that be? i tell her it should be warmer soon. meanwhile we live with a bit of dignity as i shovel my snow.